Just chatted with wondered-why-so-energetic CK, (=.=''), at this late.

For the first time,

A very teribble teribble thing I've done just now.. Done something I refrain myself from doing so..

Going for things I refrain myself to do.. one of it, drinking.

Yet I took quite lot for myselves, just because I want to experience it.

As result, I felt very dizzy, I'm still sane and clear in the mind, but needed more effort of suppress the emotion.

Perhaps I'll go wild & losing temper anytime at this rate.

oh, and forgot to reply friends' sms, darn, I've fallen asleep.

The moment I taking it is feeling not so bad, but the effect is being so bad.

This is a bad sign to show.

If I took more at that time, I might have lose control and done something out of sane.

I wonder how did the friends look at me at that time.

Look down ? Bad ? Normal ? Idiot ? Fun ? Nothing ?

am I starting to develope bad personality ??

Or just an experience I may go through ?

Does that means I'm potentially goes for smoking some day ?

Hope there's someone to watch over my back.

I'm feeling so complicated now, or simply just my unneccessary extra emotion.

So this is drinking.

Remember this day of 30th December 2007, I done it.

New year coming, a very Happy New Year to everyone

Oh, its also the happiest moment of others, and almost the saddest moment of mine, well, The seating does matters. I'm so lucky to have them, because We will get there.